11:49 PM:
i don't know why i insist on being so bummed today, on my birthday. it's just a day like any other day; i don't think i got much less attention this year than i usually do, but i guess i just wish for something so neat and cool to happen, that it would take my mind off my worries for a moment. it hasn't quite happened yet, but i suppose if i am really still it could yet happen in the next five minutes.