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Saturday, August 12, 2000

1:39 AM: 

my results at colorquiz:

Your Existing Situation
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.

Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension. Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence.

Your Desired Objective
Wants to prove to herself and others that nothing can affect her. that she is superior to any form of weakness. As a result, she acts with harshness or severity and adopts an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

Your Actual Problem
Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase her self-esteem and her feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets herself high standards.

amazing. they nailed it so perfectly it's not even funny.

1:27 AM: 

too cool not to link:, which is making art with machine code. uhuhuhuhuhhh... machine code....

1:23 AM: 

wow, i haven't linked anything in a while. so here is a browser emulator from it emulates a line-mode browser, ncsa mosaic, mosaic navigator, netscape navigator (it doesn't say what version), lynx (yay!), internet explorer (again, version unknown), and hotjava. boy, i hadn't thought for a while for just how long we were using such primitive browsers. and that's just down the netscape/ie line. when you think about how far ie5 has come from ANYthing we had 2 or 3 years ago. and yet the basic technology is the same. it's just that they could not get an interface right. microsoft or netscape. now lynx... lynx has always been good. i always make sure my pages look decent, if not good, in lynx. in fact i think i will go admire them now... yes, i have an installed copy of lynx on my pc!

12:38 AM: 

stayed late at the office talking with co-workers tonight, and we got to talking about religion. there are so few of them that i can trust— so few; there is so much backstabbing and hatred at work. so i started feeling down and frightened and i wondered why. was it the old depression coming back? then i realized it— beneath the bravado of our excited talk we were sad, lonely, scared. they were scared, and it was making me scared. i was worrying, what if it's all wrong? what if none of it can be set right? and never mind what, specifically, the it was— you know what it was— but if religion couldn't solve it and it hadn't for any of us, even though we all had one, what if it, this weltschmerz, had no cure at all?

Friday, August 11, 2000

5:20 PM: 

i just checked the logs and there have been a flurry of visitors, all from different domains, last week. hi everyone, thanks for coming! i hope you find things interesting here.

5:14 PM: 

ahh, it's been a while. *stretch* i was in europe last week. came back with the flu. but most of the interesting things happened when i showed up back at the office wearing the pair of glasses that came in just before i left for vacation. number one on the list: when M, the one i crush upon, came by and quietly breathed that they were "very nice." whisper that again, i thought. in my ear, darling... yes...!


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