looking around on the nin site... so my sister and i went to the concert in anaheim tuesday. but of course we get there late. we get there just as a perfect circle are finishing their set. so i didn't know until just now, by looking around the site, that they were playing aphex twin before the concert. see, this is why i am just convinced that trent is so godly. he likes everything i like! i mean, i think aphex twin is a total genius. total! genius!!!

i'm sorry, it's too hot for me to be any more coherent right now. not to leave you guessing, i live in los angeles.

what a horrifying weekend. my father has decided, willy-nilly (or, will-he or nil-he, as neil gaiman would put it), to sell the family home and split up the family members' living arrangements among our other two properties. it's really an attack on my brother. i'm moved out. one of my sisters lives in the dorms at college. he could move out at the drop of a hat-- he just hasn't gotten around to it yet. the only one this will hurt is my youngest sister. she's too young to move out. and, moving out for any other reason than going to college is sacrilege/blasphemy/disaster in a chinese family. she is upset. i don't know how upset. it's been years since things like this have happened in my family. but i remember how i felt when they happened to me. and they nearly destroyed me.

i am so scared for her.

and in the middle of it all, i thought, "this is going to cost me $90." because i am going to have to see my therapist about this. i know it sounds really l.a. but i can't wait until our next appointment. i didn't know, last night, how i was going to show up to work and make it through the day. i don't know how i'm going to put on a smiley face and pretend like everything's normal to the world when i feel like curling up in my apartment and not seeing anyone for a month. i don't know, if after talking to her tonight, i will be any more able to. but it is better than doing nothing.